I like to keep it honest ’round here. So I have a confession…
It can be a stressful, overwhelming time of year. I had about an hour today where I just wanted to opt out of the whole mess. Oh and I know my full crazy was showing when the weird man who approached me (for unknown reasons – but I suspect looking for change) at Bart in San Francisco’s Union Square ran away after I made eye contact with him. Yeah. I was MAXED OUT. I’m ok with admitting that too. I warned Jason I was a hair away from just loosing it and throwing a big ‘ol hissy fit right there, and I could not take any more. and to please for the love of god help me remain sane + not!!
A lunch at Gott’s, some yummy food & dessert shopping (Ferry Building), and a few samples later helped to restore me to a little better mental place. Not to mention my determination to have a good attitude and focus on the good. By the time it was time to move Buddy the Elf (our elf on the shelf) tonight, I had a bit of a chat with him and things are looking up.
We’re going to keep on making merry, carry on, and do so with a smile. It’s ok if you get to a place of being overwhelmed, maxed out, even full on crazed woman that can scare people with one look. What really matters is where you go with it. Do you stick with it? Or fight until you beat crazy back with a candy cane/cheery stick?!
I’m always a “try to look for positive” person – today was definitely no exception. I kept on breathing, trying to ignore my eye twitch, and looking ahead. Kept reminding myself of what was good here & now, and all the festivities I’m preparing for and how wonderful it all is. (even when I couldn’t quite believe it)
It’s the most wonderful time of the year dang it. And this girl is DETERMINED to be cheerful. Alright fine. I brought myself home some Macarons from Miette… aka one of my favorite treats ANYWHERE AND EVER… and that’s been big time helpful.
I don’t condone use of sugar as mood enhancer… but do what you gotta do in desperate times my friends.
PS – it would seem (of course, since I was gone all day) the USPS has decided to release quite a few of my letter and package hostages. A very excellent mail day sure did help me re-focus and smile.