Today I want to share with you the most emotional scrapbook supply I own, and how I’ve finally used some of it.
You see back in 2008 I got this “Love, Elsie” ribbon designed by this cute little artist (aka Elsie of A Beautiful Mess) for my dog Jake. He was very suddenly and unexpectedly put down before I opened it, and months later in a studio clean up I came across the ribbon. I sobbed. I wanted to throw it away because I didn’t think my heart would ever be able to have another dog… but then I wanted to keep it because it represented a hope. Hope that some day, maybe a new dog could come into my life and I would use this ribbon to celebrate them and remember my doggie angel friends too.
Every time I saw that package of ribbon I thought about dogs, about wanting to try, about loss, about being scared a new dog wouldn’t work. I couldn’t ever bring myself to get rid of it, it became a symbol of hope for a new dog more than anything else. I would see it and think “some day… some day a dog will be here and I will know it’s the right time to use this…”
Then last summer the now legendary “Scrappy the dog” came into my life. If you want to read about the first few weeks (rough, let me be honest!) of Scrappy’s life with us you can do so here. I thought about the ribbon but my heart wasn’t ready.
Some time around February I finally decided I would let Scrappy be the one who got to use the ribbons. (There is a lot – I didn’t use it all…) but I didn’t get around to using it until this week.
It was emotional breaking open the ribbon, thinking about how long I’ve had it, how long Jake has been gone. It was good though, and I wanted to share the bit of back story because this old stash item held some serious emotion. More than anything else in this whole room combined I think.
For today I’m reminded that crafting can be therapeutic, and scrapbooking more so than most anything else I do. I’m glad my heart could be open to Scrappy, and that I put all that time (and still do!) into training her and raising her. I’m happy to honor her by using “Jake’s ribbons” as they’ve been known all the 7 years they’ve been here gathering dust, and I’m even happier to have a dog roaming the house once again.
Timing wise it was crazy that I used this ribbon at long last when I did – we’ll talk more about why tomorrow…