I have hesitated talking about this cranky subject, but I feel ready to share. The ‘big D’ I speak of is DIET.
I think it’s the ugliest word ever. But here’s the thing. I realize that have to make a choice and either 1) accept being pudgy 2) do the self-loathing thing whenever photos or clothing shopping crops up or 3) go hard core with diet/exercise and loose the baby weight
I’m choosing #3. I’ve been at this for a year now- well let me clarify- for a year now I’ve lowered portion sizes, become more aware of food choices, limited desserts, limited non-water beverages, and exercised 4+ times a week. That said, it hasn’t been enough and I’m 10lbs heavier than I was in June. Still 25lbs LESS than I was Feb 1, 2008… but it’s not good considering I’ve got a lot of weight to loose. I’m very vague on my goal since I just want to be a size 10 (or 8… a girl can dream!).
So how to do this? Well I’ve discovered there have been some ugly calorie leeks that are probably keeping me from weight loss. My night time creative sessions tend to cost me 500+ calories I didn’t even realize I was eating. Whoops. So now I’m going hard core diet girl and keeping a tight diet diary (ugly wake up call there) and a very limited daily allowance of calories (1300max), no eating after dinner (5p) except water or a single cup of nonfat milk, and 5+ visits to the gym a week. Will it work? If it doesn’t show any results after 30 days I’ll have to chat with some professionals. After all- this plan of mine came from the advice of the personal trainer I’ve worked with… and I shunned the plan in past.
As my Allison Strine magnet suggests, I prefer candy corn as a veggie of choice. That said- I’ve been at this a week now and I’m getting most cravings in check. If I need a bit of sweet I just make sure it’s small. Oh- and daily. If I didn’t I just know I’d explode in an ugly binge of chocolate and baked goods.
I’ll keep you posted. Here’s hoping for weight loss 2009!