good thoughts please

Jake has been sick (vomiting) for over a week. We went to our regular vet, he was treated, got better… and now much, much, much worse. Am taking him to hospital in a few hours, and couldn’t be more upset or scared.

So, why am I freaking out? Last night I realized something that made me very upset and scared. My other two dogs that are no longer with us had to be put down within 3 weeks of today in previous years. One due to cancer, the other a bear attack. While I won’t go into the grizzly details of either, just know that this is a very hard time of year for me because of the two beloved doggies passing (2004 and 2007), and I am terrified for my Jake. With his symptoms right now it could be anything from severe upset stomach to cancer… and until I have answers things are not going to be good around here.

I am not one that cries much, or admits it either. But today, right now I am in tears. Bringing up all the pain of summers past and having my buddy threatened… it’s not easy and yes, I’m scared.

Please keep positive thoughts in your heart for my Jake.